So I thought, why not dig some of the stuffs in my room? Guess what I found. My journal 2 years back....and that I realised how much I missed writing down every single moment of my life. I guess a book is not going to last forever but a blog just might do. I am gonna simply type what I have written in the past here and followed by present updates of my current life.
Lets start with today : Thursday,13/5/2010
My mom has been terribly sick since 3 days ago. She has massive pain at her pubic pain and she cannot even get up from the bed. She preferred to sleep after taking pain killers. I let her as long as she's happy. But due to concern, I still advised her to seek the doctor for ultrasound and xray as she complained about urinating blood earlier- I mean come on, how can blood be transmitted when you are already manopause? Unless, you have a cyst? I was really worried. I couldnt sleep for 3 days since she complained.
Finally, she agreed to see a doctor. What a relieve! While she took her bath and got dressed I chat with my best girl friend and her long-distanced boyfriend which kinda made me relax and stop thinking about my mom's problem for awhile. Although we have never met this J but he seems really nice to my friend , even behind her. Well, I hope he's genuine and wont turn up like other dysfunctional long-distance relationships we have heard of...Lord, protect my girl's heart!
Then, mom was ready, without a driving liscence, I still drove the car in the rain.....to see the doctor -> Mediven Clinic. Dr. Annan said : Madam, from the ultrasound, your uterus seems as its place but there is a renal cyst. Take the medicine i prescribed for you and come back in 5 days for X-tray to confirm if you have gallbladder stone or not. At least, now we know what might be the cause of her pain.....Thank God it's nothing cancerous.
Then, mom was ready, without a driving liscence, I still drove the car in the rain.....to see the doctor -> Mediven Clinic. Dr. Annan said : Madam, from the ultrasound, your uterus seems as its place but there is a renal cyst. Take the medicine i prescribed for you and come back in 5 days for X-tray to confirm if you have gallbladder stone or not. At least, now we know what might be the cause of her pain.....Thank God it's nothing cancerous.
While waiting for the pharmacist, mom held my hands and said " Please take care of me when I'm old. Don't leave me. I remembered that none of my 12 bros and sisters took care of my parents when they were about to die except for me. I hope you won't be like them. I love you." Oh my God, only God knew how my heart shattered that moment I promised her that I will always be there for her through good and bad times as how she had been there for me all this while. Nothing in this world, even my guy will come between me and my mom. She literally sacrifices her soul to raise me up - it's a fact.
I know my mom isnt the richest woman in the world but she made my world. I have always gotten what I wanted, evry single of my request was granted by her...but the reason why I love her so face is because she had always given me hope, optimism and courage to be who I want to be : To be wild and free : To be different.
Before we head home, she bought me two white blouses unexpectedly....Oh my God, you're buying me blouses as a tip to accompany you? I love you mom, you dont have to buy me anything. And she said " These blouses are for you to take care of me when I am sick later in my elder days. You'll be my personal nurse". I smiled and said " Always and forever, Love you till death mummy". 
Honestly, I dont care being called pampered. As I am true to myself, what I am doing is right. There is nothing wrong for a girl to say " Love you to death" to her beloved mom.P/s Mummy's birthday is tomorrow : 14/5
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